To live the law of love without the rules of life

Sometimes I put life, time and my mind on pause so I can take a minute to stare at the afternoon’s sunlight illuminating the particles floating in the room. Watching these particles move slowly is one of the last simple pleasures in my rushed life. The feeling is relaxing like swimming in the ocean or listening to fire. I can say this is the moment when you feel suddenly brain dead with an unconscious smile. Everything is unfocused, unreal, and silent because of the pure intensity of nothingness. I swear in this perspective I can discover answers to questions I didn’t even know I had. Once I woke up from zoning out, I can definitely understand how it feels to drift in space. I’m amongst the stars and the atmosphere is as significant as drizzle.  

The gift of giving

Yesterday was Christmas and I did not get my girlfriend anything even though she got me three gifts. The one reason for this is because my family does Secret Santa, where you pick one name from a hat and that’s the person you have to give gifts to for Christmas, and I had a $150 budget because of gas, coffee, and bus fair. It looks simple but in reality money disappears so quickly. I ended getting my Secret Santa their gift, but I got it the day before Christmas and I did not have enough time to buy something for my girlfriend because everything closed early on Christmas Eve. Despite my negligence, I knew the gift I gave my Secret Santa shows what kind of person my girlfriend and I are. Nevertheless, today I did not go out for the “after Christmas sales”, to get my girlfriend a present, because I plan to take my girlfriend out on an old fashion date, instead of giving a gift.

Intership Readiness

I am ready for internship because I am not doing this for money but for the act of collaborating with others and letting my ideas take action. However, I do speak out about making a million dollars in the future because I feel that is the landmark of doing something important in life. Since having collaboration as my passion I have to be efficient as well as understanding towards others in any environment. For example, one of my main achievements is working on articulating my words so that my other colleagues can understand my creativeness. Another reason towards my internship readiness is demonstrating “think before you talk” by actually writing down the words before speaking them. Other than the usually acts of activeness, and kindness, I already do during the learning and developing phase, I have to do a lot more to be successful such as taking the initiative of reading the book before the assigned reading in order to be that person teachers recommend for answers.

Past Jobs

The worst job I ever had was being a busser at Hanna Zen sushi restaurant. What a stereotypical job for a Hispanic person to do; bussing tables. Before this job I remembered saying that I will never become a buser for any restaurant but I still did this backbreaking work because I was not planning to stay, although I worked there for a whole year. To bifurcate, I was there only as a buser who cannot contribute, meaning all I can do is pick up dishes, clean the whole facility, setting up the tables, and help the server/waiters, who just takes orders, all for 2% of the entire tip and minimum wage. Even though it was hard physical work, what made me upset the most about this job was that they did not take any consideration of my educational background of communication and marketing which they needed severely because no customers would come. However, from this experience I did learned how to talk to different people with multicultural backgrounds which helps me with any internship because learned how to accommodate the general public.

As for my best job, before learning and development at Year Up Bay Area, I was a California State University Bakersfield’s (CSUB) mail room employee. One of the main aspects of delivering the mail is the friendliness of people. Working was like going to say, “Hi” to my associates not co-workers and for my co-workers, they were more like friends because we went out all together for lunch and talk about movies, shows and ideas while keeping that work environment courteous towards others. The one thing I learned about working in the mail room is being friendly towards everyone while I was alone in Bakersfield. By interacting with different staff and having that friendliness towards other I have prepared myself for the real world.